Monday, August 18, 2008

Missing Eric

So lately I have been missing my brother Eric a lot. There have been times where I have felt him so close and these times, as good as they are, are sometimes more difficult. As I am getting closer to having this baby and as things are changing in the lives of my family I am wishing so much that Eric could be here to experience it all with us. As I have been studying the scriptures and praying I have been comforted to know that Eric IS experiencing it all with us, just in a different way. About two months ago I was talking to a friend from high school and he lost a brother a while ago. But he said some things that really made me think and helped me to find some peace. He said:

“You know, this may not only bring your family here on earth closer, but since love can still pass through the veil, then it can still bring your brother closer to your family and help in the healing process he is experiencing in the sprit world. And there are things that he can still do for you and your family on the other side, even things that he couldn't do here, such as praying for things that you do not because you are not aware of them. But he is."

My testimony of Eternal Families has been strengthened so much in the last few months. I can’t tell you how much I long to see my brother. I know I won’t see him in this life, but I know with all of my heart that if I do my part here that I will see him again. I am so grateful for the gospel and I know that this is Jesus Christ’s true church. This gospel is a gospel of happiness. And as much sadness and heartache we experience Christ brings a light and a peace to me that cannot be replace by anything else. I know his atonement is real and that he knows each of us. I know Eric is working and learning and is happy. I have not been able to doubt the fact that he is happy and this thought has come to me so many times. I miss him so much, every single day. I love him and have felt closer to him. (I just felt I needed to share these thoughts. It was probably just for me to hear them and share my testimony.)

3 comments:

Brittney said...

I loved reading your testimony. I did not even know that about your brother. I am so sorry. You are such an amazing example to me. You have a strong testimony. I am excited that your baby is doing well,and hope that you do not have to go on bedrest. It is the worst! Love ya!

Nina said...

I can picture him right now with that grin on his face, so happy for you about Noelle. Your testimony is amazing linz, I love you!

---Andrew--- said...

I am so glad you shared that. Kinda crazy but the day I read it was the day of my brothers birthday...he would be 21. Crazy how the spirit communicates to you, and its so amazing how what you feel and what you are brave enough to share helps others! You truly are an amazing girl and I love you so much! I know that Eric misses you too and I also know that he loves you and is probably near you more than you think! I love the blod by the way!